Sunday, February 23, 2014


The flu can suck it. Olive started the week off with barf. An entire day of flu and then poof gone. Big kid barf is gross. Nothing like being projectile vomited on to really feel like a mom. Poor Olive didn't understand what was going on. She has happily sitting on the couch and poof she was barfing all over me and my BRAND NEW COUCH. Reason #10687 why I can't have nice things. And just in case I forget all about this lovely sick I still have the smell to remind me. Luckily Blake is amazing and came how that night and steamed cleaned it but sadly I think it will take a bit more. Barf is awful, just awful. We survived the day and by the next morning she was 100% back to normal. I really really thought that was it but when we woke up the following morning I could hear Otto making that barf sound. Like the swallowing before the puke, ya I know its lovely. I ran in and picked him up just in time for him to barf all over his changing table. I brought him into bed and hoped it was just random as I was totally in flu denial. I nursed him back to sleep only for him to start the puke fest. Once I got out of bed I realized I felt like absolute shit. Blake was out surfing and my best friend happened to be visiting for the night which was the only reason I made it through the morning of a puking babe and covering myself up on the couch till Blake could get home. Thank goodness he took the day off as there was no way I could even get off the couch. It was an entire day of hell. There were moments where I thought I was going to die. The flu is torture. Luckily the next morning Otto and I work up like champs. I have never experienced a sick like this. Poor Blake has it today and its been awful to watch as he is never sick. The kids and I get every cold and cough under the sun but not him so he got hit hard. 
I want to bleach my entire house. That's safe right? Cause I am just beyond grossed out. I have never wanted real summer to get here. While I blame preschool it could really be from anywhere. We are never home so who knows where we got this from. I kinda think we picked up the flu from our mini Palm Springs vacation we went on. The timing just works. Gross. But Palm Springs ruled. We went out last week on a super spontaneous trip. My friend texted me at 2pm kinda half joking if we wanted to go out to Palm Springs for the night. I'm not sure she was expecting my giant yes of an answer but we charged. It took like 4 plus house cause we left at rush hour but it was awesome. We all piled into one room that actually had a separate closed off bedroom where the kids and I stayed all in one bed. Cozy! Alison and her boys slept on the pull out like champs. I don't think we actually slept but once we were at the pool it didn't matter. Bloody Mary's, sunshine, happy kids, and swimming all day. It was amazing. While juggling two kids isnt the easiest some how my kids do really good in these places and I was pretty relaxed. I mean who doesn't love vacation??!! We had plans to head home but I somehow talked Blake into coming out that night. It probably wasn't the most financially responsible choice but we did it and it was fantastic. Memories are better then money. In this case we needed it. Family time is kinda the best. At home we get distracted by so many things but on vacation it's just us and fun. Can we go back now??

Friday, February 7, 2014

Fake emo

I woke up this morning thinking I felt better so we got dressed and headed to a friends house for a little play date. Turns out I wasn't feeling that awesome. I don't think I'm contagious anymore at all but I do think I have a sinius infection. Aka I need meds. Getting to a dr is a whole other problem. Hoping to pop over to urgent care tomorrow and see what is going on. I've never been sick for this long so I want to make sure everything is ok. I'm sure not getting more then an hour of sleep in a row isn't helping and running around all day with the kids not totally taking care of myself. I just want to feel better and go back to working out and eating yummy salads. I can't taste shit so I should probably be eating the salad but I want comfort food which means carbs. I did lose a few pounds which I'm sure I packed right back on this week. Thanks sick. I could use a dose of medicine and a good nights sleep that's for sure. 

Otto will be 8 months in a few days and I can't even believe that. It is going so fast. He is still my sweet sweet boy but he is started to become very busy and has been getting into everything. He crawls so fast now and can pull himself up on everything. If you plop him down in a room and walk to grab something from another room you can bet he is going to be at your ankles chasing you down. Kid is fast. It's fun watching him explore and start really playing with things.
Him and Olive really played for the first time ever yesterday. I mean obviously they play but it's mostly her torturing him and shoving toys in or out of his face. But yesterday she brought him in the teepee. She crawled out  like a crazy person and he would poke his head out and get her attention then get back into the tent and she would come crawling. I guess like a really loud game of peekaboo. They were both hysterical and it was pretty damn adorable. These times are pretty amazing and for like one second everything is chaos free. Then olive usually tackles him as he cries an game is over. 

Olive Olive Olive. My spirited little child. She has been pretty opinionated lately and beyond stubborn. While I give her a thumbs up and want to raise a strong girl she needs to give this mama a break. Most things are a battle and I have just come to expect that and learn to approach everything calmly and know it's not going to be a yes mama for anything. I get it, she's testing me exactly what she is supposed to do. I know there is a little bit of jealousy with Otto that I've just started to notice. She really makes and effort to crawl up with me and snuggle and tell me she loves me over and over. It's kinda amazing and super sweet. I love those moments as the days are just chaos. The best way to describe it is like a ticking time bomb. And once something sets them off watch the fuck out. There are lots of tears and yelling between us as the day goes on. But when things are good she's amazing and sweet and beyond fun but when it's bad it's really bad. I have no idea what she will be like as she gets older. I always kinda thought I pinned her as this super social cheerleader type but girl has a dark side. Lately on play dates she has zero Interest in her friends. Will play by herself and get super dark and emo when her friends come around. It's been weird and sad cause it's so out of character for her. I spoke with her teacher about it and she said she noticed that kids do that a lot. Some days they are just social and other days they want to play alone. I dunno it's weird. But ya so she's been way antisocial with her friends she has known since she was a babe. Then today we were in land of nod waiting to get the kids photos taken and ahe was playing with this little girl like they were bffs. Playing pretend and laughing. So I know she has it in her but she is just starting to get a little selective or moody at times. Kids are tricky business. 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

The plague

Ya I think we have the super flu cough in these parts. We were staying way too healthy this flu season but not to worry we got something real good and nasty. Otto is slowly getting back to normal. I haven't had to do a breathing treatment on him in days so that's the best news. He's still coughing and a bit snotty but his breathing is so much better. I'm hoping he doesn't have asthma as I feel like now when I look back to months ago he had a bit of rattling breathing when he got sick. Can't stress on that now as getting him healthy is my goal now. I started feeling pretty shitty on Sunday and now I'm pretty sick. It's not a normal cold it's a combo of a cough and the worst stuffy nose ever. I never get a cough like ever and I'm hacking like crazy and it hurts. I feel achy all over too like all my body parts hurt but so far no fever. Olive has the cough but no runny nose so hopefully the flu shot did something good. Right now I'm just trying to get better as this has really been a rough one. We haven't really done anything fun for over a week besides a birthday party this weekend that Otto stayed home (as to not spread his sick) so ya it's been some long ass days. Were used to getting out and breaking up the day with random errands or fun play dates but it's been pretty boring around here. I have zero energy and I don't want to share this sick with the rest of the world. As much as all I wanted to do was crawl up on the couch I did nothing like that today. There was a lot of tv watching for olive but you do what you have to. Lots of painting and puzzles and made up ridiculous games. During one of ottos naps I was able to make a weeks worth of baby food and some energy bars. I felt accomplished. I feel so thankful for healthy days especially when I feel like this. Hoping tomorrow is a snot free day and we can get back to some what of a normal life. 

Wednesday, February 5, 2014


Every single night right on time Otto wakes up. This kid is like a clock! We were doing really good on sleeping before the sick but starting over so 10:06 every night it is. Then 11:58. Then 2:23 and then with a closer around 4 when. I usuall ly just bring him bed cause I'm so flipping tired.  Pretty much every two hours. Ya sucks. 

This morning was an early one. Otto was up around 4 to eat then never really went back to sleep so finally a little before 6 we just got up. Olive had been calling for Blake so apparently she wanted to party too. So so tired. We ended up starting the morning with a valentines craft. While olive is usually happy to watch tv for a bit Otto is all over the place so once he is up it's game on. It was a long day as we stayed home since I'm still feeling kinda gross. That and it was rainy and getting dressed sounded bla. We made valentines cookies which was super fun and messy. We played with every toy possible. Olive dressed up in a million different outfits.  The best part is she took a nap! Otto also took his typical 30 min nap and once he was awake he fell back asleep in my arms. It was lovely and I just sat on the couch and watched "call the midwife." It's so so good! I'm pretty hooked on the show now and excited there are so many seasons.