Lately I've just really been focused in on every little thing they do. I don't know if it's that sometimes the fact that I can really see Olive becoming a big kid scares me or that I'm not sure we will have more kids and this will be my last whatever stage it is. So many things going on in my head. It's funny how many times I've been asked if we are going to have another. Before Otto was born I was sure three was a good number. After Otto was born I was thinking we were pretty done. Those first few months of finding balance and so many sleepless nights made us pretty sure we were done. Then here we are today. While Otto is getting harder and harder and way busier he's losing that baby. He's getting close to walking and he's talking like crazy these days. He's not a little baby anymore and I get so sad. Not a day goes by that I don't think to myself if I'm done. Unfortunately I'm on a time schedule since I'm older. Gosh what I would give to be like 4-5 years younger and have a few years to take a break. I would absolutely want one more. While financially it's out of the question and totally irresponsible I don't want to have any regrets as were dealing with a time sensitive matter here. Two is nice, it's neat but every single thing about me loves chaos and a bit of a mess. Three is unbalanced and chaotic and just sounds perfect. Blake on the other hand is done but he can be convinced otherwise :) It's hectic, busy, chaotic, and amazing all at the same time.
Today I really focused in on Olive and just watched her problem solve. She's also been really good at that but lately it's been on another level. She's putting things together and not just simple things but bigger grand ideas. It blows my mind. When I watch her I think to myself she just gets it. Life is full of princesses, made up everything, and just being a kid. Today she made a kite out of paper. While I was feeding Otto she manged to pull the table over to her bead box, pull it down and get a string. She spilled all the beads but when I got back from feeding Otto it was all cleaned up. I was impressed. She got tape and attached the string to the kite. We went outside and she ran back and forth flying it. Probably a good 30 min in and out of the house playing with a piece of paper. Kid life is rad.
|This is a picture of my brother. I totally see it.|
|A quickie park trip before we got sprinkled on.|
|He is obsessed with eating my face like a zombie.|
|Olive just ran by me and threw this on my head.|
|My new favorite app EVER. (Animal face)|
|This guy is becoming quite my little eater. Tofu, avocado, and cottage cheese.|