poop shirt

Today I conquered Home Depot and Target. Not alone but with my moms help. Normally I can handle a full day of errands, maybe throw in a lunch, and still have a happy kid but with two, holy shit holy shit. Getting out of the house took a while and once we were done with Home Depot it was time for Otto to eat. Its about 100 degrees out today so we all piled in my car with the a/c blasting and I fed him there. Then there was poop. First all over my shirt (whatever seriously its a daily thing for me) and a diaper change. Normally the trunk would do but it was filled with crap from Home Depot cause this weekend I'm getting my serious DIY get shit done on. So between me and my mom we changed him on the seat. No big deal obviously but this all took a good 35 min. Thank god for the leap pad and a pile of snacks to keep Olive busy. I know in a few months I will laugh at this post (please please) and life with two will be no big deal but the first few outings have been tricky. In conclusion my mom is never allowed to go home and I NEED a bigger car. Easy enough right?

Yesterday I had my 2 week visit at my midwife to make sure things are going well down yonder. I asked her about the grapefruit seed extract and she said I could take it orally too which I had no idea about. It clearly says it on the back of the bottle but I don't normally read directions. Pshhh. So last night I took some and I almost puked. My dumbass mixed it with water and I could clearly taste it and it was not good at all. So for anyone looking to use that make sure and use juice and not water. My stomach is still bothered by it but I'm going to keep trying it for a few more weeks and see if it will do the job. Now that I'm leaving the house more I'm covering my boobs which means wet breast pads which means yeast. Yummy! I realize I'm being a bit of a hypochondriac but if you've ever had thrush you know how shitty it is. I got weighed at my appointment which was slightly depressing and exciting. I've lost 20 pounds which seems like a lot but I still have about 25 more to get back to where I started or 30 to get to my ideal weight. I know its been 2 weeks and I'm trying not to put pressure on myself but its summer now which means I have to show a lot more skin. I'm also in that awkward place where the maternity stuff sorta still fits but looks weird but normal clothes are just a tad too small (thank you hips for getting bigger) so its just annoying. I'm pretty much living in the same 3 dresses which is fine, I know it won't be like that forever but I have a closet full of perfectly cute dresses that I would love to wear. I need to go bathing suit shopping and I keep putting that off. Since we spend a lot of time at the beach I'd like to be able to go in the water with Olive but right now my boobs are like watermelons and don't fit in anything but the thought of going to a store to try on a bathing suit actually makes me ill. What to do what to do.

My house is so quiet right now! Otto and my mom are napping on my bed and Olive is asleep in her room. It's so nice to have an extra hand. I totally had time to get so much done. I filled out all of Olive's preschool applications which was like 30 some pages. Yikes! I tried not to get all emotional while reading through everything but it's such a big deal. I get all sad that she is growing up and then of course all nervous because she is going to be out of my care and control. I know she is going to love going and its only a few hours 2x a week but it's such a big step. She just seems so grown up theses days and I can't even handle it. More importantly what will she wear on her first day of school??? I remember what I wore and damn it was special and cute. Must find that photo. So while I need to start thinking about planning her third birthday and outfit for that (get ready for blog posts after blog posts of my rambling ideas) I need to find the perfect preschool outfit. I immediately thought I would get her a custom thief and bandit dress but I can't decide if thats more birthday or preschool appropriate. How cute are these??







Then there are these cute things. All totally out of my budget but its fun to look. I can't believe all the cute stuff they make for little ones.










She would probably just be happy wearing one of her way too small for her dresses and glass slippers. Funny kid has a select few dresses that she just loves and will ask to put on every single day.

I'm actually finishing this post the day after I wrote all the stuff up there. The kids are napping but my mom is gone. I finally got Otto down so I figure I have an hour to do whatever I want. Blogging and laundry will be my wild afternoon. So happy its the weekend and we have some serious hot weather. My Grandma bought me a hammock so you can bet my ass will be planted in there with a yummy drink this weekend even if its for a an hour while the kids sleep. Haha saying kids plural is still weird like I really feel like a mom. Next week is 4th of July and I'm pretty excited it will be a short week for Blake at work. We have plans to go to a morning party, followed by a parade, then the beach. I need to get my hands on some sparklers too. Olive will lose her mind when she sees those. Its totally legal to light fireworks in my hood, not that we will be but there are stands everywhere. It's always a very loud night on the 4th. We had a pre 4th of July celebration with some friends the other day which was awesome. The kids swam, decorated cupcakes, and painted. Mostly looked adorable in their red, white, and blue outfits.

when i put her down for a nap she was naked and her room was totally clean. 

we failed at a group photo but i got half of them in there. 

decorating bags. 

cupcake decorating. 

serious business. 

thrilled. 

the 2nd kids can't move yet so group photos are no big deal. not one of them fussed or cared. 

trouble in a pool. 

i themed my kids for the party. i sorta hate myself. 

loves the babies! 

mini blake. 

waiting to sit down and eat. 

"why is the baby eating again?"

chubs. 

he is the most serious little guy. 

after meal and changing in the car. 

cheesebooger. 

2 weeks plus a few

HI. I'm still here, kinda. Still trying to adjust to having two little ones and zero time to catch up on life. Otto turned two weeks on sunday and he is sure growing fast. At his appointment he was already at 8.7 pounds and I'm sure he has gained a bunch more. His sleeping is about as good as you can expect from a newborn, and he's been mostly up about 3 times a night. It took a few days to adjust to that but now I'm kinda in the groove. It's just getting him back down that has been a bit tricky but it's all about learning what he needs and wants. I think he hit his 2-3 weeks growth spurt because he is having some cranky days and just wants mama. I don't mind but it hasn't made it easy to get out of the house or explain that to Olive. She is adjusting as best as she can. She is still super sweet to him and loves him up every second she can. Sometimes a bit too much but she is learning. She is definitely rebelling and trying to find attention anywhere she can but its not aimed directly at Otto as it is to us. She does things she clearly knows are wrong and watches us to make sure we see her. I also have crazy mom guilt as I'm always telling her not to do this or do that or don't touch this or hold on or give me a few seconds. She is starting to understand but I know that can't be an easy adjustment. She has been pretty patient with me feeding him and is mostly just curious. When he cries she will tell me that he needs milk which is pretty cute. The newborn feedings aren't easy either, sometimes they can last like 45 min and then I have to change a diaper and its a whole long process. There has been a lot of ipad and tv watching going on and I try not to feel guilty about it as I know it's not forever.

And because whats a post from me without talking about boobs??? Breastfeeding HURTS!!! I mean not forever but that first week it's brutal shit. I was looking up some info on latches cause I got all psycho and thought I was doing it wrong and everything I read told me it wasn't supposed to hurt. My scabbing, blisters and blood are all gone and now it doesn't hurt but it sure as hell did. I call so much bullshit on those hippy ass websites. Those bitches must have some tough ass titties. AND then to top it off last week I got a sample kit of formula in the mail. Obviously those jerks get your address from something baby and send it at the ideal time, like right as you get into that depression and your boobs hurt, and you're tired. Its criminal I tell you. Formula is great if you need it but for a tired mom maybe struggling with breastfeeding having that show up on your doorstep is cruel.

Last night I had a major freakout cause over the past few days I noticed my nipples were really pink and Otto has a nasty diaper rash. Both signs of thrush. I made a quick solution of grapefruit seed extract and water and started using it on myself and Otto last night. His rash is totally gone, my boobs not so much but I'm hoping if there is any yeast on there it will take it out. He has also been screaming like a mad man when he is on my boob. I'm like 99% sure it's because my letdown is super fast and he gets totally pissed off but I also kept thinking it could be from the thrush and that he is sore. No thrush no thrush no thrush!

Besides the normal adjusting and emotions all over the place I'm loving having this little guy around. He is still as sweet as can be and cuddles like no other. He's starting to throw me a few smiles but mostly keeps a pretty serious face. I know I constantly compare it to the experience with Olive which is kinda unfair as they are so different but it's also the only thing I know and have as a reference. I'm still trying to take it all moment by moment as some days are just really hard. This morning was one of them. It got to be 11am and I still couldn't manage to get in the shower or get Olive dressed. Some days will be like that and I'm learning to just go with it and be patient when sometimes I just want to scream. Blake has had a crazy last week with work and also taken on some side retouching which means when he comes home he pretty much has to go on the computer and get to work. We need this extra money so bad and I'm extremely thankful for it but that means I get no break at all. Between bath time, dishes, and putting Olive to sleep it's a lot and I get tired. I know its temporary and Blake is probably beyond tired too but sometimes timing is kinda a bitch ya know? I didn't mean for this post to be all whiny but sometimes it just happens.

outside time. 

my sweet ride. kinda loving the skateboard attachment on my bugaboo. 

fancy grilled cheese. 

art projects.

grass rolls. 

squishy face. 

her first wii game. 

beach day. max and bailey. 

first beach day for this little guy. 

skinny legs. 

swim time. 

singing rockabye baby. 

the wild and the mellow. 

working blake, stacking olive. 

obsessed with shadows these days. she sleeps with a flashlight so she can make shadows on the wall. whatever works. 

fancy. 

sugar stare. 

multitasking. 

rolls. 

sassy at tap class. 

first day of summer. 

family portrait. 

visits from tamar. 

twins. 

first sushi, first beer. 

jessicas baby shower and the babes. 

otto and stryder enjoying the baby shower. 

chickens and pup. 

a lot of this going on. 

whipping up some chocolate chip cookies. 

watch dog. 

they are getting very comfortable. 

mud pie. 

sweet notes attached to my shot of espresso. 

relaxing cup of coffee.